Roses are Red...

I recieved some roses from my friend today. It's soooooooo pretty!! But actually I don't really like recieving flowers because they won't last forever, and it's pretty cruel to watching them die...

But isn't it pretttyyyyyy :)

I was planning to go out run today, but then it started raining pretty hard. Also it was pretty dark out, and I just thought you probably wouldn't want me to go run alone in the dark.. guess I'll have to do it tomorrow then. And then later today, I wanted to paint something instead, but I couldn't find any of my old paint boards and paints.. ahh ridiculous. So I stayed at home pretty much the whole day, read some books and did some piano studies. I totally can't wait for my friends to come back so that we can hang out and have fun parties... but schools in England won't get done till mid-July.. :( Oh well, it's actually pretty nice to relax and enjoy some free times before everyone gets back and before school. :)

Then later today my bro and I went out for supper and then walked around. It was pretty cool outside after the rain. I like where I am living because there are more open air than most other parts of Hong Kong, and is so much less crowded here :)

Miss you so much my boyfriend.. I have been thinking about you all day and I love when you call... You make me so happy my boyfriend:) I love you so much.....Boyfriend boyfriend......... I love you SO SO SO SO MUCH.. You're the best!

Boyfriend, boyfriend..

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boyfriend.. la la .. boyfriend.. la la..

la la la...... BOYFRIEND!!

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So....Do you like my song?

I know, right, that's what I learned in college being as a music major.


Cool, huh? :)





So I was suring the Net earlier today and I found this on sell... thought would be nice to have one too..






I miss you, my boyfriend... Being at home here in Hong Kong has not been easy for me.. and I really wish you could be here so that I could feel at least two thousand times happier than I am now. I really really, really miss you, boyfriend. I feel like it has been too long since I last saw your face, and I really miss seeing you. I miss talking to you face to face, I miss you blowing air on to my face and being all that goofy which makes me happy even just remembering it.. and I miss the way you looked at me.. I still remember after being kissed by you, how you whispered "I love you"..which made me really shy.. but really liked it at the same time.. and I really miss it. I miss your hugs and kisses, and I miss the smile that was on your face after kissing me that night..... I miss everything about you, boyfriend, I miss you I miss you I miss you Zachary Owens.

Boyfriend, to be serious, I do know that I love you more. It doesn't need much explaination, because that's the fact and I just know that it IS true. I am so in love with you, boyfriend, I'm sure I've told you that even myself got a little scared by this love I have for you. You mean too much to me than just a guy that I am dating currently, you're like the only person I want to live for, and it's just scary. I don't want to feel that way, to be honest, I don't want feel that way about anybody. I am scared of this one self, and I don't like it. Not that I don't like the way I am loving you, I know I can keep on loving you more and more, and I will. It's just that.. it's scary to think about me having such feelings on someone, and I just can't stop thinking what if I lose you what if this or that.. Boyfriend I love you. KNow that I really, really, really love you, not just saying.
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Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
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Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
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Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
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And there's no mountain too high no river too wise
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
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Come what my, come what may

I will love you until my dying day

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Huh? Me??

Like it when you say Good Morning.

I like when you call and wake me up in the morning... like, this morning, I felt like I was the luckiest person ever to be woken up by you, and I too wished that you could have been here today when I woke up.... :) Boyfriend I love you I love love love love love love you!!!

I didn't do much today, cleaned the house, did some piano practices and then went to my grandma's for supper to celebrate my uncle's birthday. It was the first time after getting back to see my uncle and his family. My elder cousin was there, too. He was the one who I had a little fight with, when we both were in Toronto last Christmas. It was fun talking to him today, but he likes to talk about girls a lot (and in very inappropriate ways!). My cousin is kinda playboy type of guy, he's now 26 but still wouldn't stop playing around.. It was pretty funny when he told my brother that he's suffering from many of his ex-girlfriends are back from Toronto for summer, and most of them wanted to hang out.. therefore he will soon be bankrupted by paying all their meals and stuff. He called that "The reaping".. haha.

Sometimes it's pretty hard for me to communicate with my extend-family. They are nice people, but the things they talk about are not something I'd normally talk about with my friends or in church, or even my direct family. Sometimes I do feel uncomfortable talking to them, so I don't normally talk when I'm with them. They are nice people tho, it's just that there's aways a gap between them and us.. But that's okay, I still love them a lot.

Today was a rainy day.. which made me think about you even more. Boyfriend, you were never not on my mind not even one second. I like to think about you a lot :) Although missing you is still a bit tough for me.. but I guess that's alright. I know I can wait till that day because I love you sooooooooo much.. nothing can ever keep me away from wanting to be with you, my boyfriend. I love you.

Wish you could be here too, my love.

Best airport hotel in the world.. ?

I think this is a funny picture, but I'm not sure why it's funny... it's just a picture of many taxi parking at the same place but somehow it's really funny to me....

Today was my mum's school graduation ceremony. I woke up at six, met up with my mum and her teachers at their school, and arrived the airport at eight. The ceremony was held in the airport hotel. It was a okay hotel, but then when I found this, I couldn't believe it and I thought it was really funny.

I found it ridiculous because I thought they named it themselves, and since it was just a okay hotel they shouldn't be that big headed.. but later on I found out that, appearantly, it is true that this hotel won the world's best airtport hotel award. Well then... so why didn't they make this sign bigger?

Today was a pretty long day. As I was the stage manager, I was running around pretty much all day. You know I can get kinda annoyed and do panic a bit when things go wrong, and since I am pretty familiar with stage managing for shows like this, I knew what problems would happen and I knew how to fix them. But it was not the same this time, because today I was not the one who's in charged. Honestly I was nobody to this school except a one day helper... So I didn't say much or tried to take control over stuffs because those who were working with me today weren't just theatre workers or my core members.. they were all teachers who have been here for years. It would not be appropriate to tell them what to do, and it would be so impolite of me if I did. Therefore, eventho I saw problems and wanted to fix them, I just let things happened.. oh well, nothing was going to be the end of the world, and sometimes making mistakes could be fun also.

However, being as the principle's daughter at the same time was kinda awkward in such situations. Everyone tried to show their respects by being really formal with me, and some teachers even called me "Wincy Je-je" (Wincy big-sister).. which was totally awkward and I was so uncomfortable. Imagine Jamey suddenly call you "elder brother"......Yea. Not okay.

Although it was a pretty crazy day, but being around kids made me sooo happy :) They were soooooooooo cute.. they were so simple, and I just couldn't resist anything they asked me for... Yeeeep. I had a lot of "wanting to bite" moments today. It was hard.

Kids getting ready to perform. They were SO CUTE!



The world's best airport hotel........ ohhh I still can't believe it. Not that this hotel was terrible or something.. I just thought it would be funny to keep saying it over and over again.

2010 Graduates in their gown! It was a very nice colour, and it looked so cool when there were 200 kids in gowns walking together... and I found out afterward that it was my mum who actually picked the colour. Good job, mum!

The graduates were singing a song as an appreciation to the school. It was very nice :)

These are the friends that I made in two days. They were all sweet babies and I like them A LOT A LOT A LOT. They were all in the musical "The Wizard of Ox", which I sang the solo "Somewhere over the rainbow" for. They did a great job today, although there were some tech problems due to some brainless people not using what they didn't have.. but these kids were clever enough to make things happened:) Ohhh how I love them so!

Ahh he's so cute.

Look at my face..... I got sooo hyper being around with these kids. :)

Hey.. Boyfriend.....

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I think I am in love with this little guy... I hope you don't mind.... He's tooooooooooooooo cute and I want him to be my baby..... and YEP you're right. I wanted to bite him so bad.

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But I still love you!

Lucky

This is how much I run everyday. The green play button is where my home locates. It's a total 5 miles trail :) I love running but running in Hong Kong can be pretty dangerous, especially at night, so I think I am going to try running in early morning next week. Hmmmmm will see how it goes.

Remeber while we were on the phone, my bro dropped in and said we needed to leave soon because the rehersal was going to start at one? When we arrived the school today, nobody was there because it was supposed to start at two, as I told him. So we decided to walk around the shopping mall until two, and I was making fun at him the whole time because he seriously have problems with numbers. He wanted to say one forty five but somehow he kept saying two forty five, and he kept adding the sums wrong when we were getting food. He even did two plus one equals four and I was like ahh I see where all the problems come from. It was pretty funny.... :)

I had so much fun at the rehersal today. Those elementary schoolers were SOOOOO CUTE!!!! They remembered me from being there yesterday, they wanted to make friends with me and they asked for my facebook and stuff.. and we played games and chatted and they were just SO CUTE :) They kept asking me random questions, like, when's my birthday, how tall the snow was in the States, do I know Chinese, what kinds of shampoo I use (lol!), what do I usually do when I'm at home..... They told me that I should go for Miss Hong Kong because they thought I was very pretty, which cracked me up. :) And they asked if I have a boyfriend, and they said he must be pretty lucky (they actually said that!) because they thought I was very nice. Ohhhhhhhh they totally made my day.

I took a two hours nap this evening. I could have taken a longer one but my bro woke me up and dragged me out to supper... this is a picture of us in the elevator when my bro was complaining how hungry he was and where should we go... hahhaah :) We were talking about random stuff in the restaurant, and there was a little girl crying not far from us and she was pretty loud, so we started talking about our childhood and I conclued my childhood by saying "I think I was a pretty big jerk-ass when I was little.", then immediately, without thinking, my bro went "and you're still one pretty big jerk-ass today." :/

I miss you my boyfriend... ohhhh I got distracted by the news. The 13th suicidal case just happened by those Foxconn Electronics Inc. workers. Sad.... being around sad news like that everyday teaches me never take granted for anything. Love you, my boyfriend. I am too lucky to have you as my boyfriend, thank you Lord! :)

So I wanted to send you something nice that can make you smile, but then the postman told me to get out of the mail box.

So after talking to you, my bro told me that we were going to meet up mum at a Shanghai restautant so that we could have lunch with her together. I got all kinds of excited when I herad about it, because ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I love Shanghainese food! It's actually my favourite:) Yum yum yum yum yum!



These are the typical utensils we use at a restautant. Your girlfriend is pretty much a hygene freak so normally I wash them with hot tea before using them. ;) My brother was trying to teach me how to hold chopsticks since I didn't really know how.. by the end of today I still couldn't get it figured out, so oh well... don't care. :/

Some of the food we ate today. It's hot and sour soup in the bowl at the front, and the white dish with broccali is fry egg white with crab meat, and there are some yummy spicy dumplings on the right.............ahhhhhhhh. :)
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As I told you my mum wanted me to help with some stage managing for her school's graduation ceremony, so I went to their school to see them reherse today. They were having their dress rehersal, and those children were SOOO CUTE! I never really liked children because they can be ridiculous and annoying.. but these guys were different. They were SO CUTE!!!! They were jumping around, and was all kinds of smiley and they were just simply adorable. They talked to me and asked if I were Chinese since I spoke English, and they told me to be on American Idol after hearing me sing. And they called me Miss Ho.. hhaahhahaa.

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The reason they could hear me sing was because when I was sticking around for their musical rehersal, there were chaos and some teachers and staffs complained about the main actress for not being a good singer and the solo was terrible. So my mum told me to help that one girl with some vocal stuff. Somehow by the end of today, they decided to let that girl lip-sync, and your girlfriend will be singing that one solo backstage. The show is this Friday, so your girlfriend will have to learn that song in two days, and she just got banned by her mum from eating anything spicy.

During rehersal. And the lady in green is my mum.

Being in a primary school brings up a lot of my primary schools memories.. my bro told me that he had never enjoyed primary school, there were too many yelling and stupid rules... but I never disliked any of my school years I had in Hong Kong. I enjoyed going to school, I had fun, and sometimes I think I had way too much fun. I was always the trouble maker. I cheated on exams when I was in primary school (already!) , I made up names on teachers and got detentions by doing it, I pretended I was sick and had to be sent home when I noticed I didn't do my homework, I never hanged in any of my homework for that one subject because at that time I was in charged of collecting that subject's homework, so I just pretended I hanged mine in. My teacher found out eventually and they had to see my parents.

When I was in year 5, my friends and I broke into places where we were told nobody was allow to be near, and we even hung out there regularly. I had my uniform dresses couple inches shorter than supposed to, just because I thought it would look nicer. I bought my teddy bear to school, and hid him in my drawer so that I could touch him when I was in class. While my boyfriend at that time and I were sitting next to each other in class, we would hold hands, which made everyone giggle. No one ever did that, we were just elementary schoolers!

Mr. boyfriend, I hope you won't mind that your girlfriend was a little mis-behave crazy thing. She is now a good girl I promise! But I'm sure she would still hold your hands if you guys were in class together........... Oh boyfriend I want to hold your hand.. can I?

Big Fish

No I don't mean that.

I meant the movie Big Fish.
I was watching it today, and it just hit me like a hurrican. I cried like a babe, wasn't sure why, and was pretty teary for the rest of the day. This was not the first time I've watched it, I've seen it a couple times and it is one of my favourite movies, but I never cried before like I did today.
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I love this movie not just because it was well made, I love the idea in it, I love the pictures and I love how it's so fantasy-ish and real at the same time. It made me think a lot also, it actually reminds me of the book Five People you meet in Heaven (such a great book!), that people you never thought would make such huge effects on you most of the time determinds who you are and where you go... and every decisions you make might end up changing somebody's life even. It's very scary to think about, but also interesting and exciting.

This movie also reminds me of the relationship between my father and I. We were never close, although I know he loves me dearly. I never listened to him because, like Will Bloom, I always thought my dad was making up stories, and all that came from him wanting compliments or appreciation.. which disgusted me and I never liked talking to him. I admit I hated him for a good most part of my life; I didn't want him to know anything about me so that he won't be able to comment on anything. I didn't like being around him because I hated seeing him trying so hard to prove anything. I was such a terrible person, boyfriend, I was. I was so immature and I was just terrible. But I learned a lot in the past couple years, seeing my parents' relationship gone down and hearing things about my dad from people around.. I now understand why he acts the way he acts, and knowing it has been my fault judging him before knowing him. I now love him dearly, and am trying to make up for what I've done to him.

It hit me so hard also because I have been reading that book I told you about yesterday - A Million years in a Thousand miles by Donald Miller, which is about Don trying to edit his life and he figured his life hasn't really been a story.. so he decided to make some changes and create stories. While I was watching Big Fish, for the whole time I was wondering what kinds of story am I telling, or what kinds of charactor I am if I were in a story written by someone.. someone great.. someone like.. our God.

"A man tells his story so many times that he became the stories. They live on after him, and in that way he becomes imortal."

And then I thought about us. If we were made into a movie, what kinds of movie would that be? Where would that movie begin and where would it end? And more of that, what story are we telling right now?


I miss you, my boyfriend. I have been thinking about you a lot today... a little bit more than usual since we didn't get to talk this morning. I was thinking about scenes between us, and that made me miss you even more. Remember I told you I don't like missing you because it's tough.. it is still tough, but I'm learning day by day to be patient and to trust. You mean a lot to me, boyfriend, and I want to create great stories with you. I know I used to love like fireworks: passionate colourful sparkly love that goes bam! bam! bam! and then, gone. I used all my love up way too early, the fire went way too fast and even burned myself. I never know how to love, I was good at tying them up, telling them to love me and making them guilty so that I could make sure they won't ever leave me. But obviously it didn't work. By the end of all those stories, was me sitting by myself crying with hands covering my face wondering what did I do wrong.
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I wasn't looking for anyone when I met you, I gave up on thinking about that, it was never something good but hurtful, and I guess I shouldn't do anything to hurt myself anymore. It was tough when I realised I like you, and that I wanted to be with you. I didn't want that to happen, I didn't want anything to happen actually. I was happy with my friends with school with life in general, and I didn't want to love anybody so that I have to think about that person 24-7 and worry the whole time either I'll get hurt by you or I'll miss behave and let myself lose control. I don't want to play with fire anymore, it was never fun and never will.

But it happened.

"There's a time when a man needs to fight, and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny is lost... the ship has sailed and only a fool would continue. Truth is... I've always been a fool."

I love you so much that I couldn't let myself to just stand next to you and "just be friends". I love you, I wanted to be yours and that was the only I wanted. I pretended, I pretended I didn't like you that much at first. I didn't want you to know that I love you so much, and somehow I didn't want myself to know that too. That scared me, you know. Knowing how much I really do love you scared me. And it still does. I even tried to control the amount of love I have for you, I even told myself "Okay wincyho that's enough, don't let yourself go any further for your own good."

But appearantly I am not able to keep telling myself that.

I love you I love you, that's all I am thinking about all day and night. I love you so much, I love you so so SO MUCH. You are the only thing I want to think about, the only thing I want to talk about, the only thing that I want to hear about and know more about, and the only one I want to be with all the time. I love you. I don't know what that really means, saying I love you actually doesn't mean anything.. it doesn't make me see you, it doesn't make me touch you and feel you, it doesn't help to love you more.. it's just something.. only something that I want to say it to you all the time to express my feeling for you, but indeed it's not a strong enough word to fully express the feeling and the thoughts I have for you. You have no idea how much I want you to truely know how strong that feeling really is. It's not some phrase that I can just say it and mean it, it's too much more than that.






And that's my life story.

Day with Minna!

Ra Ra ah ah ah

Roma Ro ma ma

Ga ga ooh la la

Want your bad romance........

Yay! I didn't get hit by a car! I survived! And now I am at home writing on this blog for you, thinking about you, and that makes me very very VERY happy. AND listening to Glee cast singing the Bad Romance. Hahah :)



Soon after you called today (and me putting some clothes on.....), I looked up in the internat to make sure I won't get lost or something. I didn't get lost, but I thought I was going to be late, so I called Minna while I was in the subway on my way to where we decided to meet. But then when I was on the phone with her, I tured around and saw her standing not far away from me asking where I was on the phone... Wow we managed to get on the same train AND the same cabin at the same time. That was pretty funny :) Then we started talking in the subway getting a head start on catching up with each other, and I noticed the two foreign guys who stood next to us kept looking at us and talked to each other in their own language, which made me a little bit nervous.

One of the guys started talking to me in English, and he told me in CHinese that I was beautiful, and he introduced himself to me. They told me that they were from Argentina, and somehow they started talking in Spanish. I told them I know a little bit of Spanish, and I started saying random words like Hola Adios Gracious Caca.. and they went 'Ohh you know the word Caca? It means "shit".' and they started laughing and asked me who taught me that. I was kinda embarassed because I knew what it means when my friend taught me, but I wasn't thinking when I said it.. They also asked if I were Hong Kongese, and they told me I have really good English.


We got off before they did, and Minna said she thought they were kinda flirty and they somehow disgusted her, then we started discussing what intention they had when they first told me that I was beautiful. Minna was convinced that they wanted to make friends then eventually have some sorts of random casual relationships.. but I just thought they were being friendly and it's nice to make friends because I'm sure it's kinda hard being as a foreigner in Hong Kong.

Our debate got cut off immediately when we both realised we got lost on the street, and when we asked around, we figured we got off at the wrong station. Good job Minna. She said she knew where to go. :P


We ended up finding the place we wanted to go eat, which was a sushi place and it was yummmmmmmy :)

We got to talk a lot, and it was great time. Being with her is different with being with anybody else. I can say she knows me as well as I know myself, and being with her is just like being with the missing part of me - I feel complete with her. We can talk about everything and be very open with each other, we always share the deepest things about us not just because we want to know, we care about each other so much that everything about each other matters. We also have such similar personalities and we share the total exact same values. She can tell when I need her even when I'm away from her in US, and she knows what I am thinking about just by the look of my face. We are so connected to each other, and we have very similar backgrounds, which makes everything easier. Her parents got divorced a couple years ago also, which made us have even more to talk about. I'm just so glad that I have her in my life. She is definately one of the greatest gifts that God has given me. Without her, I won't be the way I am, and I love her soooooo much.

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OKAY! So I didn't have my brain with me, and was being retarted, that with no reason I went to the control panel to delete my audio driver and while it was being uninstalled I was like wait..... WHAT AM I DOING????? Then I started to press the control button like crazy but it was too late.. my audio driver got deleted under my eyes and my computer even started to re-start itself and everything I was working on was gone... ahh. My bro started laughing at me like crazy when I told him what happened.. oh I don't know what to do since I left all my back up CDs in US.. :'(
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Anyway, let me show you more about Hong KOng :)






This lady in Pink is Minna. She was trying to walk away from the camera when she saw me taking pictures.

Ha! I still got her!

This is the Hong Kong Time Square, where we went shopping today.

More of time square.

This is what I saw when I looked out during the bus ride home

and when I was thinking about you :)

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This is the Four Season Hotel, Hong Kong. Love this place.

Just random building in Central Hong Kong.

These are the taxi.

I spent a lot today.... I am sorry to inform you that your girlfriend is a little bit shopaholic. Minna and I bought our couple bracelet today to replace our old broken one.

We are always looking for something that last, but the thing is, we're not anybody else, we are Minna Mui and Wincy Ho. We managed to either lose everything we bought, or break them. Minna lost our first couple ring, then she lost the couple bracelet after a week we got them last summer, and so we had to get another couple bracelet from a different brand to replace that one and soon, somehow the both of us managed to break ours seperately within a month. So after we got this today, we made a promise that whoever break it next have to pay for a meal. And I'm pretty sure she's gonna pay.

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I miss you, my dearest boyfriend. I love you I love you I love you. For the whole day I wished you could be here with me, so that you can get to meet Minna and we can hold hands and walk around. Minna and I were exchanging news, and she asked about my love life. I told her that I am in love with someone, and I'm serious this time. She looked at me and asked more about it, so I told her who you are and some random things about us. She was kinda worried because a) she doesn't know you, and b) she somehow thinks this is unrealistic, but she's glad that I'm serious and she can tell I love you a lot a lot a lot.

I do love you, a lot a lot a lot a lot.