Come what may

Hi Zach !

This is your baby girlfriend saying hi :)

I didn't do much today either, my brother is still showing me around and I am learning more and more about this place each day. I better have all those transport thingy figured out soon so that I can actually go out with my friends. I already have my next couple days planned, I am so very excited to finally hang out with friends and parties and all those things! But hey no worries, I will behave, I promise ;)

I am still getting used to this whole family thing about being with my bro all day, seeing mum in the evening and not seeing dad at all. Talking about spending time with my bro, I figured I really need to work on communicating with him. I know it sounds wierd, but the last time I saw him and actually spent time with him was two years ago, and the both of us have changed a lot since then. Actually there isn't really a big problem communicating betweem the both of us, only that we have two total opposite personalities and views on things. I am generally a happy person who mostly have very positive comments toward almost everything, but my bro is the total opposite of me, He dislike almost everything, and it can be kinda difficult when it comes to discussions.



Luckily we still have pretty similar tastes on things like movies and music, and we have pretty much the same behaviors. We can get a little naive and crazy when we're together, we fight in the super store and laugh along, we push each other while walking on the street and he even tried to get me into the water fountain in one of the shopping mall... And today we were lying on bed chatting and I showed him pictures I've taken in NWC. It's so great being with my bro, and I have been enjoying every single mintues we've spent together. Although like I said, I still have to learn to communicate with him better, but I know by the end of this summer, things will turn out and I will be on top of this whole communication thing :)

I miss you, boyfriend. Have a great time at your friends' wedding, and please tell them congratulations for me. I will be thinking about you wishing I could be there with you.
I love you, my boyfrienddddddddd!


Oh and I enjoyed watching that video you made for me a lot. I watched it a couple times just because I like seeing your face and listening to your voice :) Did you know you have an "old man" face? You seriouly do..Haha. I like you......... I like everything about you. You have a nice home, I hope I can go visit at some point. I like seeing you showing me things about you. I want to know everything about you, even the tiniest thing that you don't think worth mentioning, I know I will enjoy them all. Watching the rest of that video made me want to go to an amusement park with you. I love roller coasters and I love amusement parks.. they are wonderlands! Can you and I go together sometime in the future? PLEASE??? :)

In that video it says I can tell you things that I'd like to see... ummm I do have a list of things I want to see, hope it's not too much to ask for :P I want to see more of Cedar Rapids, where you grew up and places you normally visit when you're at home. I want to see your family, how are they like? I already know you as a friend and as a boyfriend, but I am curious to know how are you like when you're with your family. How are you like as the child of your parents, as a little brother, or as an older brother? I always get jealous when you tell me you're hanging out with you family and playing games... I never done that with my family. You're lucky.

I love you, boyfriend. I really wish you could be here with me so that I can have a better time right now. Life here is really different from Iowa, it is so much more complicated and hard. To be honest, all these made me worry.. do we still suit for each other as I grew up here, raised to be like the other people here in this town.. how much more do we have to over come in order to finally be together? Zach Owens, did you know that, to be with your is a dream to me. Even just by thinking of you, take me away from all these reality business. I can't stand being here any longer, being away from you and all that... I want to run to you now and be held by you, listen to you talk, tell me how much you love me and make all my thoughts go away. I love you, old man. You have no idea how much that really is.

Never knew I could feel like this

Like I've never seen the sky before

Want to vanish inside your kiss

Every day I love you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings

Telling me to give you everything

Seasons may change, winter to spring

But I love you until the end of time

Come what may

Come what may

I will love you until my dying day