I think about you every Day and night

I saw the trailer earlier and I thought hmmm I kinda want to watch this even tho it has Cameron Diaz in it, it's Tom Cruise overall.

I didn't do much today, hung out with the two big boys and cooked the whole day. It was funny because when I was in the market getting some vegetables, the lady who sold stuff was clearly drunk. She was laughing a lot, and all her friends laughed at her and told people around not to mind her. She was really funny. But then I saw a HUGE spider knitting its web behind her, so I quickly got my stuff and ran away. It was HUGE.

While I was in line waiting to pay my grocery in the super market, I accidently over heard the guy who was on the phone behind me. Things he said was really interesting, because at first I thought he was on the phone with his girlfriend (which made me think about you). He went "Oh honey I miss you blah blah blah.. You're so cute blah blahhh" "I want to hear your voice...." and I was like awwwwww he's such a sweet boyfriend. Then he started arguing with that person saying things like "Oh don't you mind her.." "No she won't find out don't you worry" "I can't call you in the morning because she'd be around...." and I was like WOW. He must be pretty busy hiding from the other person and pretending for life.

Phil called (I hope you don't mind) and we chatted for a little while. He asked when can he start giving me piano lessons but I guess I should ask you first. Would you like me to have lessons from him? I am fine even if you say no, because I can certainly find other people to teach me, or just self teach for the summer. But I know I still want to be his friend, because I really value him as a good friend of mine.. I don't care anymore if he still likes me or whatever he's thinking, whatever that is, it is not going to hurt us. I love you and why should I care? I was scared, I admit, because it was shocking to know that he wasn't thinking the same way as I am, that is just be friends and leave it like that forever. But other than that, all I have been thinking, was, would you like it or should I tell you..?

Boyfriend.. please don't ever question me about my love for you. I love you, I know that I really do. There are sooo many reasons for me to love you, and sooo many more reasons for me to love you more. I swear my love for you will never end. There's no way that I'll stop loving you, or fall in love with somebody else, or give up on you for whatever reason. There's no way. I am not that kind of person who easily change my love.. Look at Jackie, ask him. I have been with him for fourteen years, every single day, and there's not one night that I wasn't spending with him, and there's not one second that I wasn't loving him. My love can last, trust me on this one.

Boyfriend, you know you mean a lot to me. I love you, and I never just say it. I love you because I really do, and I love you MORE. There's no way you can love me more, boyfriend, no way. You have absolutely no idea how much I love you.. and that's okay. Just know that I love you, okay?

:)

I love you.