Baby is sick.

So I got woken up by my bro, with a 50 NTD coin waving in his hand.

I WAS SO MAD.

IF he had found it in the airport in Taiwan....... only if he looked more carefully... I could have sent you the post card from Taiwan and not having it brought home in Hong Kong with me without any idea what should I do with it. :/

Boyfriend I miss you. You have no idea... It was great finally talking to you and seeing you. I miss your voice and I miss my cute boyfriend SOOOOOOOOO MUCH. Boyfriend.. I want to be with you all day and all night, I don't want to just be thinking about you and missing you anymore. I want to be with you... I want to be with you in person and get to know you more and more and more and more. Boyfriend.. I am scared (yes, again). What if we both got used to the way we communicate.. through video chats and stuff.. and when we finally get to be together in person.. would we feel awkward? Would we feel "ahhh don't know what to do" or "ahhh it's weird finally spending time together.. I wish we were still apart so that we can just be talking on video chat.."...........? I am scared. I know we talk a lot, I know we have things to talk about and we feel comfortable telling each other almost everything... but still, it's not the same with spending time together in real life.. you know?

Boyfriend.. I love you. But I don't know if that love is counted as a real couple's love... You know what I mean? I know I want to see you I know I like you so much I know I only want to be with you and talk to you. I know I want to spent time with you and, not just want to spend time with you, I want to spend A LOT A LOT A LOT and A LOT of time with you and be with you all the time.. never have to be apart from you that is. But I don't know.. right now I still feel that I'm not actually being with you, you know? I don't know what is it like to be sitting in the same room with you, I don't know what is it like to be going around with you holding hands... Basically I don't know what it is like to be your girlfriend. I know what was it like to be your friend, I know what was it like to be someone you liked.. But I have no idea what is it like to be your girlfriend that actually spending time with you. I wish I know... so that this uncertainty can go away and that I can at least feel like I really am your girlfriend.

Boyfriend... forgive me for what I am having in mind. I have been in bed for the whole day today and whenever I am not sleeping but still wasn't able to get up, I stayed in bed and I started thinking about random stuff. Sorry boyfriend.... your girlfriend hasn't been behaving she kept giving you different kinds of crap. Boyfriend, you must be worrying about jobs and futures and stuff like that, and it wouldn't be easy I know. I worry a lot, so I feel you. Worrying is never a good thing, especially things like future and stuff......... It's real, and it's close. The future is getting closer every single day and all we can do is try our best to chase after whatever it's in front of us. It's even scarier when we find out that we are actually slightly behind than others, which means we will have to run even faster too catch up. But the sad thing is, everyone believes that they are one of those slowest people, so everyone is trying to run faster and faster and faster which makes life even harder to catch up.

I would imagine when I graduate and finally be out of school, life to me will not be just a story anymore. It's real life and that I will have to face it. Plans have to be planned and I will have to make all my decisions even more carefully. Oh boyfriend... even by thinking about it scares me, so I guess I might understand how it is to be you. I hope to be a good girlfriend to you, so that whenever you start worrying, I can be there for you, and hopefully will make you feel better. I want to be a good friend to you, so you can tell me everything you have in mind and trust me that no matter what I will still stand by you holding your hands walking the path with you.

Some people say, Girlfriends are just for time to time, but good friends are forever. Am I your good friend also?














I love you.